A few readers have compained I have been too slow to catch up to current events in my live and one suggested a "FlashForward entry, just like 'Lost'." And, after some derisive comments from another reader I figure it is time to jump ahead to the current day and possibly end this blog.

Master Dean and I have agreed our relationship as Master/slave, Dom/sub is over. I've lost a lot of trust in him, mostly because he kept me in the dark about what was going on with himself and letting me take the brunt of his anger.

For the time being I am here in his house in civvies, using the second bedroom. He says I can be here rent free until I "get back on my feet" and he's going to give me back half of the money I've given him over the past year.

I also have the keys. I've been very tempted to unlock and cum. In fact, the other day I unlocked myself in the shower giving everything a scrub down and started to play with myself. After 10 minutes I still didn't get hard. I kept the CB off for 3 days and tried several times to get off ... but couldn't. When I put the CB back on, it felt sooo good.

I just passed 8 months without cumming and I start the hunt for a new keyholder. mabye a new Master ... but maybe just a really kinky boyfriend.