Dear Friends, Acquaintances, Masters, Slaves, and Everyone Else,

I apologize for vanishing off the scene for such a long time ...  As some of you know things were a bit crazy for me at the beginning of the year when my relationship fell apart and I was left trying to rebuild what I gave up for Him. 

I've unlocked myself.  Have been out of sorts and enjoying whacking off whenever I want.  But, otherwise I've been a hermit and too ashamed to visit you all in the chat rooms. 

It hasn't ended there.  THAT I could have handled.  However, a couple of months ago I discovered my roommate my former Master/Owner had become, himself a chastized slave to The Kid.  Some of you had suspected this and I denied it all up and down ... how could he be a pussyboy?  But you were right all along.  I found out when I finally confronted him after weeks of seeing him with bruises on his face and body, whip marks and teeth marks marring his gorgeous body.

I couldn't understand.  Why would he leave me to become involved with an abusive, sadistic man?  ... when I gave him all of me and all the love he could take?

At the beginning of May, the police arrived at our door and arrested Dean for murder.  From what I've been able to piece together in the time I've had with Dean it was a fight that got out of hand and resulted in an accident.  Dean made it worse by leaving the scene and not reporting it!  It was four days before someone found the Kid's body.  Dean's given up and so far has refused any help from anyone.

I've been going to a shrink to deal with all of this.  She's suggested I come back to the blog to write it out of my system especially since you guys are my only support system though I've spent a lot of time at Zee's ... with him and Bryan and Creek.

I've been trying to work enough to make Dean's car and house payments ... otherwise, in a few months it will all be gone.  Luckily for me, he transferred most of his money into accounts in my name else they be confiscated.  But still, I'm afraid of the consequences of that.

I might try to write more ... but I mostly wanted to thank all of you for the support you had given me while I was with you ... especially Slave Scott, John T, Dribble, Big Dean, and Zee.