I had looked for you forever
Watching your wonderful face
while you sleep.
Enchanted by
the softness of your being,
feeling your skin in a kiss.

No one warned me
or told me about this in you.  
It should be easy
to let you go.

We could have our fling,
laugh a little, and
have some great sex.

How was I to know there would be love.
You shouldn’t have let me love you so.
Don’t love me this hurts too much.  

Rolling over looking at the wall
tears welling in my eyes.
In 10 days you will leave
going home again,
the fling done.
Agony

My body throbs to know you more
There is this place
we are headed for,
once we reach it
we cannot easily escape
the destiny we have chosen.

Please, please don’t love me
there is too much pain in this love we are building.

Feeling you stir beside me
you reach around and pull me too you.
Small kisses on my neck
soft light strokes
produce shudders of pleasure


Turning to look into your eyes
 and melt into your lips.
Heart upon heart,
flesh upon flesh
swiftly moving to a chasm of no return.
My being parts so easily for you now.

Please don’t abandon me to this love we are living.

Dear God give me one more day
in this place I have found.
Help me to be here forever.

No one told me such pleasure would come
with this depth of torment.
The candle flickers in response,
quiet shadows play across your face
as you slumber beside me.

Vigil will be kept tonight.
You have taken me to a place
only imagined in my fantasy.

This place we rest in has become sacred.
How will I endure your leaving?
Will the echoes destroy my sanity?

Please don’t make me love you so
the agony is too much.

The muted sound of the shower reaches my ears.
Having fallen asleep the vigil lost.
Is it you in the shower?
Are you preparing to leave already?
No not today we have 9 more days

Pulling the covers to my head
for today we will remain in our sacred spot.

Your quiet steps upon the floor,
covers gently pulled back,
being pulled to your warm body.
Snuggling we fold into each other
as our passion mounts our consciousness.

Let this one memory
be burned into my mind forever.
Let this never end
becomes my mantra and prayer.
As we reach the stars
there are tears again.

Tears mixed with pain,
tears mixed in pleasure.
Don’t let me love you so much.

Where did the days go?
Tomorrow you leave.
Someone should have warned me about you.

How was I to know
I would love you so much.
No one warned me of the
agony of this kind of love.

No one warned me
you would never let me be.
You have created this hunger in me.
This hunger only you can satisfy.

Someone should have warned me about you.
Please, please don’t make me love you so much.

The coffee cannot wake me
as we prepare to leave for the airport.
How will I be able to drive home
without you beside me?

You made sure last night
I would never forget you.
Your naked body burned into
my mind forever,
your marks upon my flesh making me yours.

Who will want me now?
I have been given to you in totality.
Every pore,
every atom of my being
has your name branded into it.

My mind is weak in wanting you.
Why must I love you so.

One last wave
scalding tears falling…

please don’t love me so much.
Just one more day and
one more kiss.  

November 26, 2007

© 2007 by Suzanne Deakins
from Double Chocolate, A Book of Exotic Love