last night i cried.  actually i cried quite a bit but no one could tell. it was dark and people were laughing, including me.   was i sad?  no.  wistful, maybe?  yes!, wistful is the right word.  in the middle of all the laughter i started to miss those days when laughing with my friends was the only priority i had to worry about.  i cried for that.  god, i’m such a fag!

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may 16, 2007

the rebecca connection

normally i try not to fiddle with the truth but i had to change names of the people involved in this story due to certain unresolved issues in their lives where a positive conclusion requires that they remain anonymous.  it is not out of shame or self-loathing but because of legal repercussions that could detrimentally affect the lives of innocent by-standers.  wow! sounds like drama already and i haven’t even written much…

okay so i did a really crap synopsis of my relationship with rebecca on my last post “…coming out of the woodworks…”  but like i said, then, this will be quite long.  we do have 32 years of knowing each other that can’t just be explained away in a paragraph or two.  god, that would be horrible if we did have a 32 year friendship that had no depth and was explained away in a paragraph or two.  well, ours is not this case.  so i shall begin…read more >>

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i have been thinking lately about trying to find yet another special friend from high school, only this person and i have history that goes as far back as first grade.  we even dated for a while after high school and she was the woman i lost my virginity to.

the story gets even better, but it happens to be quite long so i will do the short sweet version...

we were straight. we almost got married.  we could have had kids together.  we broke up.  we lost touch.  then i went gay.  by coincidence we ran into each other a gay bar.  we stayed friends, but we drifted apart.  it's been something like six years of being out of touch.  today i got a message from her on facebook.  we will be friends again!read more >>

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i finally got a response back from my dear old friend matt.  my e-mail to him was part of a previous post, memories of a gay-sha.   i've included just my e-mail to his mom that was forwarded to matt here with his response back.